And I Know it’s Not God’s Fault

That Jordan never saw light. I know it was simply human  imperfection that stole something from me last year. And I know that the grief still settles in my bones. I also know that it’s not God’s fault that I am pregnant again.

Sometimes the universe can feel so cruel. Here I am 8 weeks along at what should be a happy moment in my life. Instead I am encumbered by bitterness, fear, resentment and uncertainty. Why become attached when it can be taken away just like before? Why pretend that there’s a positive outcome?

I cannot believe. I do not have hope. I am simply waiting for bad news.

 

And I know that it is not God’s fault

 

 

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