Same Ol Same Ol’

I haven’t written much lately. Every time I sit down to express my thoughts I find myself turned off by the melancholy tone of it all…so I’ve simply let my hand get quiet. There’s been a little bit of everything and nothing going on these days. I met with the Psychiatrist today and my dosage was upped because the amount I am taking “just isn’t enough”. Go figure.

These days to accomplish even the smallest of tasks requires a reserve of energy I just don’t have. By the time I’m finishing whatever God forsaken task of the moment; I find myself extremely fatigued and tired. I tire of my pity parties so I silence my thoughts with as many distractions that I’m able to handle…which aren’t very many…and I inevitably end up in a constant state of slumber just to avoid dealing with…anything.

It’s a miracle that I’ve completed this blog entry being that I’ve been attempting to do so for at least 2 hours. Good night…

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One thought on “Same Ol Same Ol’

  1. Depression took over my life for many years. No amount of therapy or drugs could get me out of the deep slump I was sinking further and further into each day. About a month ago I finally got enough courage to sit down and start writing about my depression and the darkness in my life. I have been receiving nothing but positive feedback. I have also been setting small goals for myself each day. Slowly, but surely, I feel myself finally rising out from the the darkness and into the light of life. My faked smiles are becoming more genuine and I joked and laugh all through the interview I had a few days ago. The manager loved my energy and enthusiasm and now I am starting tomorrow. I couldn’t be happier. It is not a great job at all. But it is a job. A fresh start where I can work my way back up in life and in happiness. I still fight off dark emotions and anger, but I am staying positive and hopes for better days. Best of luck on getting better. I believe in you.
    – Derek

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